poet – Tsunami of Words

waves

there’s always this depressive, catastrophic and concealed wave lurking in the dark, ready to rise unexpectedly from the pit of the ocean right when I was supposed to be “happy” to bring me back to who I really was. t.l.

love

is it so wrong to hold on to give it all to let you in and hand you the rope? the table is full take what you want take what you need my source of happiness my cave of pain my anti-depressants my love. t.l. promise you’d hold on too.

goodbyes

my life is a series of goodbyes and i don’t know how to make it stop. t.l.

scattered

unfamiliar faces sorry, i said the wrong things quickly, think of something else divert their attention say something interesting you’re always the smart one but, tell me what are you even doing who are you fooling, trying to happy and sociable? shake my legs and trying to get out you’re already in too deep doContinue reading “scattered”

worthwhile

an author said, how misery feels as if time has stopped oh god how, it feels so good to hurt i wonder if i ever stopped. if i could become water and flow upwards to find the source of all my despair if i could love myself the way you are loving me maybe iContinue reading “worthwhile”

happy new year

two-way street where’s the beginning is this the end? my favourite folk song bitter but uplifting clinical but hopeful isn’t that the only way to be ? driving my bike down the unfamiliar hill it’s the holiday but why everything is so empty? firecrackers scattered on the ground i don’t know if i should letContinue reading “happy new year”

winner

how to avoid the hurt but to self-create something more agonizing so you forget about what’s really aching? am i addicted to pain am i incapable of happiness why this urge to destroy every last thing that’s good? what am i missing why do you make me this way being in war with myself andContinue reading “winner”

Stuck

isn’t it better to live in the future where all your dreams become true isn’t it better to live in the past where all your pain runs loose i keep forgetting who i am wearing this forever changing shell, unhappiness dwells onto me like gum at the bottom of my new shoe my cat isContinue reading “Stuck”

happiness

how can your source of happiness can also be the source of immense pain? t.l.

train-wreck

as you were waiting for the right train to arrive stepped closer to the platform you did it unconsciously you went for the next available train that would pick up your rotten soul going somewhere you don’t wanna go but how could you get off it’s nice in here so familiar, yet so exciting theContinue reading “train-wreck”