aren’t we all stuck here
finding our way out
burning eyelids as we look
up to the Sun
trying to find a lover’s touch
in the dark
aren’t we all lost here
together searching for meanings
so scared of living
but more afraid of dying
as the light fades
and so will our lives.
t.l.
i don’t know which is worse
so good at lying
i ended up being the idiot
who never doubted anything,
or so bad at lying
i could tell from just the flicker in their eyes
can i delay sadness by a day?
can i just be happy for now?
t.l.
does it make a difference
if you’re in bed with someone
or if you ended up dying alone
could you feel less pain
could you rise from the dead
could you go insane
or could you finally cut the thread?
one leaf falls after another
i reached for the phone
someone got my tongue
i said “is it hell?”
on the other side
i heard my voice saying “yes”.
t.l.
my rain, my eyes
weak body, weak mind
if you’re living, consider yourself
the lucky one
i’m always drowning
in a room full of glass
i’m forever screaming
but they are speaking over me
wasted time, i wonder how much
longer i can pretend
a captive bird that happens
to be your favourite pet
but i am delusional, a mess
deep down i know it’s all piling up
suffocating my own body
and the people i ever loved
i’m sorry for being here
a flower no matter how beautiful
will wither and die
i only wish this time i remembered it.
t.l.
sometimes i wish
i was a dog running through a big grassy field
bathing in the Sun, soul sets free, hair twirls
jumping, flying, catching butterflies
counting clouds, not problems
tongue out, tasting life.
sometimes i wish
i wasn’t stuck in this weak body
i wish i could run so fast
until i feel nothing
until i am nothing.
t.l.
when there are a lot of noises
you will find yourself making choices
whether being frustrated
or sit still and find the quiet space
in between strangers’ dialogues.
t.l.
why is happiness so painful?
promises that became sand
slim and crooked branch
why are you holding on so much?
the water keeps flowing
and you, you just kept running
walked this Earth with a mindset
that one day you will be loved
the day all the wrongs become right
and you no longer need to hide.
t.l.
i just want to tell you how i really feel
i just want you to know that i’m hurting
the littlest things, the things that you deem
unworthy, i cry for them, i care so much
so desperately, that i wanted to die
i just want to tell you how i feel
isn’t that too much already?
t.l.
you’re losing me
little by little
piece by piece
peel my eyes out
and let me look at myself
when i’m around you
i think, for a moment
i could see clearly
that i don’t belong here
we are losing
little by little
piece by piece.
t.l.
the simple poems
are rewarded with the truth
people like it short,
i keep reminding myself that
dark ocean eyes, lie awake at night,
trying to map out my life
the ceilings were my friends
since i was a baby
revolution, resolution
even with robot wings
even when you flew to Mars,
only to look up to the ceiling
every damn night again.
t.l.
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