my dog was so considerate
that when he was dying
he picked up a blanket
and went to the bathroom
so he’d leave no mess on the floor
and we wouldn’t have to worry anymore.
t.l.
For my favourite dog, Mina. I love you every day.
swimming across the ocean
being in a relationship is like
swimming across the ocean
with shallow water and rip tides
anything can kill us in an instant
the white sharks and crocodiles
waited for us to get weak and strike
when legs are tired, and minds wandered
we wrapped our arms together
and swam through the storm.
t.l.
blossom
flowers bloom at night
and their love blossoms
why does wrong feel so right
and young love always have to die?
“kiss me in the dark
til deaths do us part”
cross our hearts and swear
I will always be there
two backpacks and an affair
let’s run away together
if all the gays ended up in hell
then that’s where we’d be forever
you were 16 and I was too
hold my hand and count
one
two..
t.l.
This is dedicated to a recent tragic news where two young girls ran from home and ended their lives together. Their parents could have looked for them. They could have been found before they decided to jump. But in the end, the victims were blamed, for their sexuality even after their deaths.
If you need help or someone to talk to, please contact the suicide hotline right away. It is always hard to be different. But there are people who will understand and accept you for who you are. Just reach out your hands and call for help. You are not alone. We are much stronger together.
tsunami no.3
people might try to belittle you
contain you, divide you up
into different kinds of cups
but you are not water in a glass, aren’t you
you’re not there for them to conclude
“half full or half empty”
when they burn you, you vaporise
you break that glass as you turn into ice
you are the big ocean,
an underwater tsunami
you rise as high as their skyscrapers
and you refuse to be undermined
as anything lower.
t.l.
stand tall
I wish I could stand tall
like a sturdy oak tree
and when the high wind blows
it sweeps everything but me.
t.l.
Sun/Moon
You are the Sun
burning with desires
and so much pride
You are the Moon
soft and gentle
giving lights to the ocean
But don’t you ever doubt
that you don’t shine
day and night
you create lives to pretty flowers
you give home to lost travelers
Your scars only show
in the darkest nights
everyone is asleep
that’s when you shine
the brightest.
t.l.
time is running out
time is running out
their hair have turned
more and more grey
each and every day
I wish my parents could stay
a little bit younger
their hands can hold mine
a little bit tighter
time is running out
make up your mind
you’ve gone through
more than a third of your life
stop running away
stop chasing butterflies
be present. be nice
it’ll be gone before
a blink of an eye.
t.l.
musician
Then they say: “Fine, well do what you need to. But I don’t want to see you wasting your life. Isn’t it time you get a job?”
Porter Robinson – Musician
Something sparks in me hearing these lines from Porter Robinson’s newest song – Musician. I think it is true sometimes, that people think creative work isn’t real work (unless you make a lot of money out of it).
People who work in creative industries are often taken for granted and sometimes misunderstood. My parents told me about real life examples of a music teacher who can’t earn enough money to support his family. That I was better off being a doctor or an accountant than to play music for a living. Maybe there is some truth in it. They have a right to be worried. But I also have a right to do what I want for my life.
There are times where I don’t get much work done and that’s when I started doubting myself. Thinking maybe I should pursue the whole corporate work again. Maybe then I won’t be wasting my life.
But then I kept going and realized that whichever choice you made, whichever way you go, there are going to be obstacles and hardship. As long as you love what you do and keep going, that’s already enough.
I don’t know which decisions I will be making tomorrow. I don’t know what life will bring. I just know that I will not let anyone tell me that I’m wasting my life. That I am figuring things out on the way. And sometimes, that’s okay too.
Be an artist. Be a musician. Be a writer. Be you.
t.l.
journey
don’t wait until you know
exactly what you’re doing
start now, and keep going
the journey is erratic
and we are all beginners
experimenting parts of life
and that’s the beauty of it.
t.l.
(see the world through an amateur’s set of eyes)
okay
it is okay
to feel down at times
to get scared and run
to question your every decision
it is okay
to stay in bed a little longer
to freak out about the future
to get sad and cry for hours
it is okay
to do what you love
you are not wasting your life
you are living it just fine.
t.l.
Tsunami of Words 