a vampire sucks your blood dry
but you’re slowly turning into them
from the bite marks to the false reality
just like how we were getting so high
in that home full of forest fires
broke our bones so we can fit together
a little bit better.
t.l.
a vampire sucks your blood dry
but you’re slowly turning into them
from the bite marks to the false reality
just like how we were getting so high
in that home full of forest fires
broke our bones so we can fit together
a little bit better.
t.l.
the cactus i once had grew beautiful flowers
after i was gone for three months
sometimes, too much caring is deleterious
sometimes, it’s better to just leave them be.
t.l.
and they will grow on their own
i hope you know
even though i seem transparent
i could still give deadly stings
but these venomous jellyfish
only live on the surface
are you here to witness
all my safeguards stumble and fall apart?
i have stripped down to my bones
and my heavy heart is lying on quicksand
i feel everything except for my spinning brain
will you still be here to catch me?
the deeper you managed to dive in
the calmer the sea will be
i promise.
t.l.
self defense is my only language of love.
find someone like me
brave like me, strong like me
I went to work since I was ten
and while you were still crying and sulking,
I already brought home food and water.
find someone like me
with broad shoulders
and a stomach for knowledge and power
I’m the best example of a hardworking man
and you should look for me in your future lovers
stop writing and start thinking about your life
you’re at a crossroads, and we know you’re not even queer
we know you still got that femininity, deep inside.
find someone like me
who will work hard from day to night
who will give you a good roof over your head
no one will ever make fun of you anymore
I promise you, this road is better and safer
don’t go the other way, you’d get lost
and forget who you really are.
I’m here and after everything, I’m still here
can’t you see that my knees are down on the floor for you here
whatever you wanted, you got it
so why can’t you give me one thing that I want?
a family. a real one. that’s all I want.
so go find someone like me,
perfect like me.
t.l.
a warm hand touched your skin
and you realized how cold your body has been
that all these clothes can’t save you from hypothermia
when it’s your heart that is freezing.
t.l.
melt me by sunrise
so i can flow wherever you go.
When people asked me,
‘what are three things that get you to work?’
‘what are your three strengths and weaknesses?’
i find it hard to list only three things for them
because i’m a jigsaw puzzle with 3000 different pieces
each with its own unique shape and colour
i don’t even know which one will fit today
so how can i give you only three pieces of my mind
and suddenly you can see the whole picture.
t.l.
if only conversations can be a little bit better than what are your three things.
are you even worthy of a real relationship
when all you do is push anyone who ever
made one step closer than you planned to
so you’re stuck in that circle of security
safe and alone, for the rest of your life.
t.l.
you were smiling in that photo
were you happy?
you captioned it “good times”
but did you cry while dancing?
you said “my friends are my family”
but, how many friends do you have now?
you were admired by many
but who have stayed after stepping
on your heart on the floor?
you said “i will love you to the moon”
but you actually never made it back.
t.l.
nostalgia, memories flowing through your veins
sadness, it’s like the feelings never left
confusion, do i really want to relive this again?
anger, i hate that your sound sounds like a song
denial, and it’s not even that good
hurt, will i ever be truly happy?
acceptance, maybe i never will but that’s okay too.
t.l.
as long as i’m me and not who you wanted to.
fix me
tell me i’m pretty
and there are good things waiting
if i just keep trying..
fix me
in the hollow cave
there’s a tiny cry for help
echoing like laughter instead.
fix me
like how you kissed my scars
and said that they are beautiful
fix me and turn my heart of fire
into the ocean of sugar water.
t.l.