scattered

unfamiliar faces

sorry, i said the wrong things

quickly, think of something else

divert their attention

say something interesting

you’re always the smart one

but, tell me

what are you even doing

who are you fooling,

trying to happy and sociable?

shake my legs and trying to get out

you’re already in too deep

do you know that nobody cares

whether or not you’re faking it

breathe, you tell yourself

every time you closed the door

breathe, that man won’t attack you

next time, run faster

breathe, wake up now before he caught you

sleeping soundly and innocently

breathe, count to three

and this is all a dream.

your house is invaded

your attacker is smiling at your parents

nobody gives a fuck what happened

what’s important is that you have to smile now

be a good girl and smile through it

okay?

t.l.