disappear

why do i have to feel

everything so intensely

my chest , my poor chest

is torn into a thousand pieces

and at the end, i’m the only here for me

i wanna be dangerous, i wanna be rude

i don’t wanna care about anyone’s feelings

i don’t wanna feel all these emotional waves

up and down and up and down

i’m already sea sick but I couldn’t leave the boat

why did i keep writing these poems

if i had nothing nice to say?

why did i keep living life

like it’s on show

can i disappear now

can i?

t.l.