idontknowhowtotitlethisone

london’s blue sky

the trees are losing their limbs

i wanna feel high

can you get hallucinations

from a tooth infection?

cars passing cold winds

foggy roads and strangers’ smiles

now everything seemed like a short film

winter wonderland and the busy bus ride

birmingham to norwich and back again

i used to love singing in the car

but now i wanted to crash into one.

i remembered walking

and looking at the clouds

so happy that I would dance

with my fingers in the pockets

so no one would see

hey, that doggo looked so pleased

maybe he would notice me and bark

i crave attention when being ignored

and shy away from constant affection

do i need to be tortured to feel alive?

my tears dried before i knew it

fragile like a snowflake

one touch and i turned into water

flowing down your cheeks

pretending to be a tear drop

wishing i tasted like the ocean

hoping i was more pretty, more fun

laughing when i felt the most pain

and crying when i was the most happy.

t.l.

thank you Jelin for being my friend.